Well I'm feeling (somewhat) better about everything. My mom had a good talking with me, so I feel like I can move on, albeit slowly. I have my first Circuits exam on Wednesday, so I have lots of studying to do. I skipped out on everything on Monday, because I was seriously depressed, and my missing the bus in the morning, on top of having not finished fixing my bike, just had me giving up.
On a brighter note, Code Geass' 2nd season is rolling strong, and despite there being a few annoyances and "animisims" (things that are common in anime, yet would make no sense in reality), the show manages to keep the viewer surprised. That, and 95% of the females in the show over the age of 17 are (anime) hot. Unnessicarily so, actually.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
More failings.
Well since the death of my SD card, things have just gone downhill.
Academically, I fear for the grade on my 2nd Comp. Org quiz, and the first was probably bad as well. My Data Structures exam may have went alright, but I'm usually wrong, and it's not as if I was finished way before time expired. Circuits is screwed as well - first quiz was a 5/1o, while the 2nd was a 2/10. This is despite studying for all of these, thinking I know the subject material, and being wrong.
On other fronts, I can't seem to even get a pseudo-date. I asked two girls and neither worked out. I tried doing that return thing with the SD card at Best Buy, and it failed due to trying to use mommy's credit card, for which I'm not an "authorized user".
I'm constantly tired, and unmotivated (now) to do any kind of studying or schoolwork. Despite knowing what I "should" do, it's not happening. I'm not even motivated to clean my damn room. I'm gaining weight still, and I'm friggin insatiable when it comes to food. My balls hurt (seriously), and I'm constantly afraid that it'll turn into torsion despite having had a consultation with the SHCC.
Well I'm glad I'm not the type to consider suicide, because I know people with less psychological fortitude might have already done it. Yay, me.
Academically, I fear for the grade on my 2nd Comp. Org quiz, and the first was probably bad as well. My Data Structures exam may have went alright, but I'm usually wrong, and it's not as if I was finished way before time expired. Circuits is screwed as well - first quiz was a 5/1o, while the 2nd was a 2/10. This is despite studying for all of these, thinking I know the subject material, and being wrong.
On other fronts, I can't seem to even get a pseudo-date. I asked two girls and neither worked out. I tried doing that return thing with the SD card at Best Buy, and it failed due to trying to use mommy's credit card, for which I'm not an "authorized user".
I'm constantly tired, and unmotivated (now) to do any kind of studying or schoolwork. Despite knowing what I "should" do, it's not happening. I'm not even motivated to clean my damn room. I'm gaining weight still, and I'm friggin insatiable when it comes to food. My balls hurt (seriously), and I'm constantly afraid that it'll turn into torsion despite having had a consultation with the SHCC.
Well I'm glad I'm not the type to consider suicide, because I know people with less psychological fortitude might have already done it. Yay, me.
Friday, June 6, 2008
SDHCorpse
SD card for my NDS died. Inaccessible. CycloDS can't read it. Omaticomp can't read it. Doesn't even show up as an unformatted drive - it's just gone.
Feeling faint. It's hard to move muscles. 7.16gb of data is lost, along with a few hundred hours. Last backup was Feburary 28th. $75 of memory is now useless. What was to be the year's only personal expendeture is now done for. My primary refuge for stress relief seems to have backlashed. I'm feeling a strong urge to simply lie still for a week or so.
The fact that this is causing me so much trauma gives insight as to who I am. Turned my DS into a person. A good friend I hung out with in some of the spare time I had. I know in a week this feeling will have decreased by several magnitudes, but for now it feels as though a part of myself is gone. This is just like how it felt when V.P. demolished me, but not quite as bad. I wish I hadn't thought of that, but it's true.
It's kind of hard to breathe as well. Computer Organization is killing me, and tomarrow is the first Data Structures exam. Whatever confidence I had is now gone, thanks to my fear that I'll be affected by my emotions. I know this is far from the worst thing in the world that could happen to me, but I don't care.
Proviews.net is going nowhere fast. I'm still bitchless (sic). My money is running out faster and faster these days. I find a new stretchmark biweekly. My laptop battery is down to 1.5 hours of running time.
Feeling faint. It's hard to move muscles. 7.16gb of data is lost, along with a few hundred hours. Last backup was Feburary 28th. $75 of memory is now useless. What was to be the year's only personal expendeture is now done for. My primary refuge for stress relief seems to have backlashed. I'm feeling a strong urge to simply lie still for a week or so.
The fact that this is causing me so much trauma gives insight as to who I am. Turned my DS into a person. A good friend I hung out with in some of the spare time I had. I know in a week this feeling will have decreased by several magnitudes, but for now it feels as though a part of myself is gone. This is just like how it felt when V.P. demolished me, but not quite as bad. I wish I hadn't thought of that, but it's true.
It's kind of hard to breathe as well. Computer Organization is killing me, and tomarrow is the first Data Structures exam. Whatever confidence I had is now gone, thanks to my fear that I'll be affected by my emotions. I know this is far from the worst thing in the world that could happen to me, but I don't care.
Proviews.net is going nowhere fast. I'm still bitchless (sic). My money is running out faster and faster these days. I find a new stretchmark biweekly. My laptop battery is down to 1.5 hours of running time.
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